Deep Thoughts

For some reason, I have recently been thinking about things I would go back and change if I could. To be honest there are not many. I think part of that is because with time comes some sort of clarity as to why we have gone through the experiences that we do. I think that, in time, we start to understand the lesson we were supposed to learn or realize the great people we met because of a certain situation. God truly works in mysterious ways....

The one decision that I made that I still struggle with on a daily basis is having LASIK surgery. I am hoping that time does prove to bring some clarity, but for now I am left frustrated for many reasons.

• I feel bad that Chad gave up something that brought him so much joy (his quad) to help make my dreams come true.
• I feel bad that and frustrated that not only was my end result not what we expected, but that, even with correction, I am not able to see well out of my right eye.
• I get frustrated every time I am tired and try to read or see a movie because I am unable to accommodate for my vision problems like I was able to prior to the surgery.
• It is frustrating that there is no way to truly make people understand what it is like for me now.

If I could undo one thing in my life, I would have to say that it would have to be my LASIK surgery. I know someday I will see the good that comes out of this situation, but for now I am just praying for patience.

Nothing too interesting

This was officially the first year that my boys did NOT want to dress up for Halloween. To be quite honest, I am okay with that. Instead, we went to Golfland for "spooky golf" as a family and then had some friends over for pizza. Everyone in my house was sound asleep by 10:30. It was great!

Then, on Sunday, we got up and went to the Cardinals game! Those of you who know us know that this is NOT a rare occurrence, but what was different was that our next door neighbors bought tickets in our section and showed up to surprise us! We had a great time despite the terrible game that unfolded. We really have the BEST neighbors!

On a sad note, my High Risk OB class has come to an end. I have REALLY enjoyed the class and have enjoyed not having to work 1 night shift a week even more. I am not looking forward to adding in that extra night again, but at least I had 7 weeks of additional sanity. Until you have had to work true night shift, you can't understand to hard it can be.Otherwise, life is good! I am enjoying the cooler weather by taking nice long walks with my husband and by having the doors and windows open ALL the time. I have started my Christmas shopping, and the boys are doing great in soccer and more importantly, school!